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Beat the devil out

My default state in life is ‘mildly depressed’; I have to fight against tipping into the void. I am also autistic, and require huge sensory input in order to regulate energy and emotions. I have ADD as well, and so my brain is often home to chaos. These ingredients make […]

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Taking the piss

I see my Daddy most Saturdays. This is our main time we spend together each week. I give him head. We fuck – a lot. I get a good beating and lush aftercare. Generally there is some cooking and/or eating, and drinking of tea. Our Saturday time together ends with […]

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Feed me

It’s 7am on a Saturday morning, and it’s been snowing for a few days. Daddy has put pieces of pear and bread outside for the birds. I kneel on the floor next to the sofa, where Daddy sits, and we watch the birds hop around and enjoy the unexpected feast. I […]

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You asked for it

This is a little fictional story I wrote based on a conversation I ‘overheard’ on Twitter… I arrive at the hotel first. This pleases me as it confirms my role as the dominant person here, the gracious host. You are a man of excellent taste and you have chosen well […]

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Into the woods

Today James and I went for a woodsy walk with the specific intent of fucking in said woods. Despite much effort, we didn’t quite accomplish this but several other interesting things did happen. One of the many wonderful things about being with James is that I do things I’ve either […]

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The therapist

I have decided to see a therapist to work out – something. I don’t know what I need to work out exactly. I hope the therapist will help me work out what it is I need to work out. I wonder how I should start the first session… ‘Seven months […]

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The story so far

Hello, dear reader. If you are joining this semi-live broadcast of my sex life, I thought you might appreciate a quick overview of WTF is going on and how I got here.   Before July 2017, I was living a comfortable, vanilla life. I had always known I was a […]

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Kinky mother

I was in a professional meeting a few weeks ago, and another person in the meeting was talking about someone who wasn’t there, who has the same job as me. ‘She is rubbish at her job,’ they said. ‘And anyway, she’s a swinger.’ Wow. A swinger! Ironically, the only way […]


The intruder

I pull in the driveway and notice the lights are out – unusual. I think you must have gone out. I unlock and open the door and as I step in and reach for the lightswitch a hand closes forcefully around my wrist. I’m pulled forward into the house. The […]

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Many of us who have found a home (spiritual, physical, emotional, social…) in kink and BDSM always knew we were a bit different. From early sexual experiences we knew we liked it a bit rough, or wanted to be dominated, or to pin down our sexual partners during sex. Most […]

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How did I get here?

When I was 16 my first ever real boyfriend broke up with me. Steven and I had only been together for six months but the split was cataclysmic. Steven gave me his undivided attention, and was the first person in my life to love me unconditionally. Everything I did was […]

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A tale of two collars

In all my years of love and sex I have never found myself caught between the affections of two men until the Battle of The Doms began between Stew and James. Stewart was my Owner (and technically is and always will be my registered Owner*) and James, at the time, […]